Sejuk dan Mengenang

Salam.

Suasana agak sejuk 2,3 hari ni. Hujan saja waktu petangnya. Sy pula rase nak selesema lah cikgu. :). Selalunya kalau sy nak demam, sy akan bermula dgn selesema. Tp harap-harap selesema sajalah..itupun kalau dizinkanNya. Apa-apa pun, sy tak kisah. Sbb ini cuma dugaan kecil shj. Sabar shj.

Hari Jumaat hari tu, sempat menghadiri ceramah di Masjid Kolej Islam Malaya. Bertajuk Evolusi Pemikiran Golongan Muda. Penceramahnya Ust Syakir kalau tak silap. Beliau berasal dr Terengganu. Byk input yg dpt. Tapi ada satu yg mmg sy takkan lupakan. Sesuatu yg menyedarkan sy tentang betapa mulianya manusia disisi Allah berbanding ciptaan-ciptaanNya yang lain. Tp masih lagi kita alpa, lalai, lupa dan sombong. Mengapa? Sesuatu yg sy turut bertanya pd diri sendiri juga.

"Iblis tidak mahu sujud pada Adam, dan dilaknat oleh

ALLAH SWT,
Sedangkan manusia, yang tidak solat, ertinya tidak mahu sujud kpd ALLAH, masih lagi diberi peluang dan masih lagi dikasihani oleh Allah"

Allah masih lagi beri peluang utk sy hidup saat ini. Dia beri peluang kpd sy utk sy lihat balik apa salah dan dosa sy. Namun, ada kalanya sy tetap lalai. Berfikir dan mengharapkan sesuatu yang mmg tak layak utk sy miliki. Membuang masa sy. Sy ulang-ulang perkara sama.

Jika anda juga merasakan perkara yg sama spt yg sy rasa, mari kita tinggalkan dulu pekerjaan lain yg sedang kita buat sekarang. Fikirkan apa yg telah kita buat hari ni.. Mana yg byk? Yg baik atau yg buruk..

Wallahu'alam.

Pergantungan Total

Salam.

Pergantungan total terhadap Allah dlm setiap perkara. Take note, setiap perkara.

Post ini mungkin agak ringkas. Sbb pd asalnya apa yg ditulis di bwh ni adalah hasil contengan di atas kertas shj semasa cuti semester 3 mggu tempoh hari. Dtg bak air dan tulisan serta kertas yg diguna juga tak perlulah cerita bgmana keadaannya. ;). Maklumlah nk cpt. Tambahan, bila melihat keadaan fail yg makin byk terisi dgn kertas2 baru, nota tu nampak mcm makin tenggelam dan seolah-olah makin dilupakan.

"Apabila sedih : Mengadulah kpd Allah

Apabila susah : Minta tolong daripada Allah

Apabila gembira : Bersyukur dgn sebenar-benar syukur.

Apabila senang : Kongsilah kesenangan itu dgn Allah. "

Ingatlah bhw, jika kita ingat Allah di saat kita senang, maka Allah akan ingat kita di saat kita susah. Siapa lagi akan tolong kalau mmg dah tiada siapa lagi di muka bumi ini utk kita minta tolong? Sounds cliche' and sounds like something that you hear every single day. But hey, that's the ultimate truth. Deal with it. :)

Wallahu'alam..

When Chances Come Again

Salam.

This is my new semester. Kick start it with a new plan. I'm planning to have a schedule. I want to plan out a detailed schedule. I don't have a 20++ contact hours this semester. But freetimes are precious. Learn it through experience, mistakes, whatever it is, you name it.

Another thing is that CFS IIUM will be having 2 major events Sports & Martial Arts Carnival (SMAC) and Raudhah Festival (RAFEST). Baktisiswa is also a major event but this one will not involve everyone. Honestly, I'll be busy. Not trying to be cocky but that's the truth.

When new semester starts, wait.. I would not take something as big as semester as an example. Let's just take.. day. When a day starts, I consider it as a new chance, new opportunity, precious one, given by Allah to me.

Yesterday is so yesterday, but I am still thinking.. did I used it wisely? Personally for me, these few days, have been quite a thoughtful ones. I wonder a lot. I think a lot. People said I look emotionless. I may walk like a zombie or some sort. But whatever people say, I was thinking. I like to think. I like to think rather than talk. That's why I didn't talk that much as other people did in meetings. But that doesn't mean I lack ideas. It's just that, I am very particular when it comes to giving out ideas. I observe and only say things when I think it is really appropriate.

Some people will continue this brand new semester with the hope of continuing their excellency. But some people are struggling to battle again with the things that they had failed previously. Allah has His own way of testing us. You think you know. You think you have guessed it right. But the truth is you don't know. You think something is actually good for you but the truth is it is bad for you..

"Fighting is prescribed for you, and you dislike it.

But it is possible that you dislike a thing which is good for you,

and that you love a thing which is bad for you.

But ALLAH knows, and you know not"

~Al-Baqarah : 216~

I would like to go through my days here in CFS IIUM as positive as I can. I have a few friends that I really call friends. You know who you are. :). Wait, why did I say a few friends? One answer... In quality I seek, not quantity.

Yes, I don't have my own version of Geng Bas Sekolah here. Through an observation I made about my ownself, I see that I go places with different people. Sometimes I also go places by my ownself. Trust me, you do need some "me" time.

Refering back to chances. They don't come as often as we thought they would be. When you're with a different group of people, you see different kind of chances. Some of you might not get the relationship between chances and people. Well, for me. Friends or strangers or whoever they are.. as long as they are call people, are the medium for you to be good. The medium that you can use as a way to do good. To sumarise this thing, I call it chance. A chance for you to reflect yourself. Look around.. what do you see? Do you think your community is already good enough? I would certainly said no. And I would also say, it is my fault that they aren't good enough. I didn't use what I have now to help them. I am very dissapointed with myself. I'm young and have all the energy to do something, but yet I'm still here dwelling in my own business and activities.

What will be my answer if Allah asks me about what have I done during my lifetime?

See, doesn't matter if they are good people or bad people. Each and everyone of us should take the chance given to us to redefine ourselves by helping others, thus, later on helping ourselves too actually. You don't quickly go and judge people. Find a thousand good reasons first before you can do so, before you can judge people. They must be at least one good attribute. Allah is Fair.

By helping others, you give "CHANCE" a chance to be felt by both parties. The unlucky ones..they will have the chance to correct themselves. And for you..you will have the chance to be a better person. We're not perfect and we will never be. But Allah always opens up the doors of forgiveness and chances to His beloved ones which are no one else but.. us...

Wallahu'alam.

Here They Come

Salam.

I guess my almost 3 weeks holiday is coming to an end. For CFS IIUM, 3 weeks of hols is like the longest u could get. I don't mind that. I don't want to rant because I am a student, I study, that's my job. But not just mere study, but seeking knowledge in the name of Allah by abiding to His rules along the journey.

The holidays are fully-filled with surfing the net, sending emails, receiving messages (lots of them), mainly for SMAC purposes. Plus, not forgetting, spending time with family and old friends. Eventhough I think that I did manage to grab all the chances that come which involve meeting people, I also felt like this 3 weeks (almost), are quite a private one. 60% of it I spent staying at home. I went through a lot of things. Went through different kinds of emotions. Please take note that you can get weird sometimes and started to develop weird kind of emotions when you're alone and have a lot of things to do and think about.

So, beware..take care and remember Allah always. :)

Well, that's it I guess. A summary of my inter-semester vacation.

Currently anticipating with full hope for the final exams result. I pray everyday for each and everyone of us. Yes I do. Praying for the ultimate best for us.

But at the same time, I am making myself ready just in case anything happens. Well, I'm preparing myself for both situations actually. Preparing not to be too happy if the result is okay and not to be too sad or down if the result is...you know. But I will not give up on the hope of wanting to have the best. Because I don't want to give up my hope on Allah's plans, whatever it is.

I have faith in Him. and so should you..

Hanya Sebab Itu..

Salam.

Bila kita berkehendakkan sesuatu, dan kita tahu dan sedar perkara itu mmg jauh dan sukar utk kita miliki, bagaimanakah rasanya?

Tidak kisahlah dari segi apa pun.
Anda pilih.. dan bayangkan..

Apabila kita tahu perkara itu sangat-sangat baik utk kita, tp rasa sgtlah kerdil utk memiliki atau memperoleh sesuatu yg sangat-sangat baik itu..
Tidak kisahlah dari segi apa pun

Anda pilih.. dan cuba rasakan..

andai hiba, Dia shj penenangnya..

Kerna aku tahu..

Janji Allah itu benar.

Maka..

Aku sanggup tunggu..

Aku sanggup sabar..

A Portion

Kerana aku ingin mendapatkan seseorang

yang suci dan baik,

Maka aku akan berusaha berada dalam kesucian dan kebaikan

A portion of quote I found when reading the many stories in Di Atas Sajadah Cinta by Habiburrahman.

I believe in Allah's promise. I chose to stay true to Him and His promises. He is indeed never break His promises. This is my choice.

In order to build something beautiful. I shld start now. Doesn't mean I'm being very keen on getting married. But, I always love to take this as an example. A house which was not build with a good foundation, not build with high quality materials, will eventually end up crashing down. Whether it is going to crash short after it was build or long after that, it is not the question. The problem is that, it is going to crash. Whatever that you live through, the way you live it, the people you befriends with are things that you call contents of your life. And contents are also the things that I call components. Components that will affect what my life would be in the future.

On the crashin part, I hope that it would not happen.

But please take note that, if I will not have the chance to even see that 'house' in the future, I will always be happy because along the journey I've took and I've made, I didn't use any kind of low-quality materials. And I strongly and fully believe, without doubt, that the house I built will never crash down.

A thousand hardships now, should be bearable by human rather than a tiny hardship you'll face in the afterlife.

p/s: Jaga diri

Ana..

Salam.

Pernah seorg sahabat menyangka yg sy dulu pernah bersekolah di Naim Lil Banat. Sy tersenyum shj. Siapalah sy nak menjejakkan kaki di situ. Sy bersekolah di sekolah biasa shj. Jln tak sampai 5 minit pun dr rumah. Tak pernah duduk asrama, tak pernah berjauhan dgn keluarga. Msk Kolej Matrikulasi Perak, itulah kali pertama berpisah dgn keluarga. Al-kisah di matrik dulu tak payah cerita. Biar Allah shj tahu. :)

Alhamdulillah lps tu dpt pula ke Pusat Asasi UIA, PJ. Dkt juga dgn rumah, setengah jam sampai rasenye. Igt lg mase nak msk UIA, serba salah juga nak tgglkn matrik. Sbb kebetulan dah dpt sesuaikan diri, dah kembali tenang, setelah 'berhempas-pulas' bersabar, tiba2 dpt tawaran msk UIA. Masa dah rase boleh nak adapt tu la, dtg ujian sebegini. Benarlah, cara Allah nak uji tu mcm2 cara.

Kalau nak cerita perkara2 yg sy lalui, yg membawa kpd siapa sy hari ini, sekarang ini, saat ini, mmg lah byk. Tp apa2 pun, ini lah sy sekarang. Org kata dah berubah. Tp di sini sy ingin jelaskn.. Jika benarlah kata anda yg sy telah berubah, ingin sy jelaskn, sy tak perasan pun sy berubah. Sy tak perasan pun sy ade buat perubahan di sana-sini. Bila sy fikir sekarang.. bila masa plak ak tukar benda2 ni?. Termangu sekejap. (Termangu, pkataan br blaja. ehhe).

Td mase dkt open house, ade sorg shbt lama ni tak habis2 sebut. "Btol la. Kau dah lain." Sy agak segan sbb ramai org jugak time tu dan semua mmg sdg mndgr. Sy tak suka jd center of attention. Disbbkn dia ulang perkara tu byk2 kali, sy jwb, dgn baik dan tiada niat lgsg utk sombong. "Chill chill, we'll talk about that later". Fuhh, terlps satu sesi "being in the limelight".

Ade shbt kesygn yg sorg ni (you know who you are.. ;) ), lps die bc salah satu post sy, die kate die adore sy sbb sy strong. Sy sgt sgt sgt segan dgn pujian itu. dan Dr. Fazilah Kamsah ade buat research, kata beliau, org November ni tak hargai pujian. hehe. Pelik lah.

Ada kalanya sy strong, ada kalanya sy weak. Kdg2 di atas, kdg2 di bwh. Semuanya milik Allah. Tiada satu milik sy. Boleh jd Allah nak tarik keupayaan sy utk menulis. Boleh jd juga Allah nak tarik keupayaan sy utk menggerak jari2 ni. Igt, semua org boleh buat apa yg org disekelilingya buat. Cuma bebeza cara.

Ampunkan sy. Niat sy menulis semua ni bkn utk tidak menghargai pujian2 anda. Sesungguhnya sy menghargai. Sy tahu niat anda baik. Sbb anda adalah org2 yg baik. Itu sudah tentu.

Tp ampunkan sy sekali lg.. Setakat itu shj. Sbb sy benar2 takut dgn sesuatu yg bernama ria'.
Ria', sesuatu yg dlm hati, sesuatu yg susah utk dikawal. Sy mengaku, sy pernah menangis sbb perkara ini.

Ampunkan saya sahabat2.. jgn slh erti. Bersangka baiklah terhadap sy. :)

p/s: nak kongsi, dgr lagu Hamzah Asadullah. Hayati lirik sambil dgr lagu die. Sayu.