Ongoing.

"Change is never easy; it surprised, rocking lives and shaking souls. In the early days of my Islam, I viewed change as an event; a one time shot "from darkness to life." Over time, I've realized that it is much more complicated than I first assumed."
-Imam Suhaib Webb

I used to think that change is a one-time thing. Whatever you do after that time is going to be different, and should be different. A few years later then I realized how I was being too seclusive during my shifting phase. To be exact, masa tu dekat PJ. I think I sort of lost contact with a few really close friends, I have their phone numbers though, but somehow I forgot about them sekejap. up until now, I couldn't figure out exactly why. But what I can assume is probably because I was in a shifting phase, it was like adapting to a new life, new perspective. Frankly speaking, I once felt like I was to blame for being so selfish but I keep in mind that things happened for a reason. 

Another reason why I think "change" is not actually a one-time thing is because it is actually a process. There are times when you got angry and acted as the "old-self". During these times, I get frustrated for not being able to be that "good" or the "changed" person that I'm supposed to be. But now, I realized that I am not perfect, I'm still struggling and will keep on doing so 'til death comes upon me.

Some of the point mentioned by Dr Halima during The Game Changer event was change is a process. Since it is a process, why don't we shift our perspective for a while and imagine the straight path that we are hopefully journeying through is a horizontal path and not a vertical path. Along the way, Allah wants to show and teach you the things or ways to prevent you from doing the bad things. In order to keep yourself balance, you need to keep on moving. Just like riding a bicycle or especially when you are trying it for the first time.

Probably, this Ramadhan, I learnt that different people have different sets of jihad. Through this ongoing process, let everyone venture into whatever event that comes along during the process. Some are struggling to finish the Qur'an, while some are figuring out on how to learn his/her first ayat. Some are struggling to keep on the right track while knowing that he/she will fall several times after trying. 

More than 7 billions of struggles. 

How amazing Allah is for creating each and everyone of us in a different way and yet, never fails to listen to each and every one.